The past few months have been one of those times you just want to forget and erase off your past memories.
As pastor Marvin says, I’ve had my share of ups and downs, mixed emotions, from happy to sad, laughter to tears. I have felt discouraged, encouraged and even tried to encourage myself, but somehow there would be that moment where there would be so much turmoil in my heart, so much hurt thinking about certain situations, or just thinking, life should be better than this.
I have lost friends, or rather people i thought were ‘friends’ and gained some valuable lessons too.
The Bible clearly states that as a man thinketh in his heart then so is he, and to be honest as much as i tried not to think about everything i was going through, i couldn’t help it.
i believed i was depressed and if i remember well, i think i confessed it to a few of my good friends, some of whom came up with the all famous sentence “don’t say that” or “depression is not your portion”. But who’s to say i took heed to their words? how could I at that time anyway? i had it all figured out in my head and no one was going to convince me otherwise.
But when you’re a child of God and you know the word of God, you will always get a conviction in your heart. I could feel the spirit telling me do not confess that, i kept on remembering Job 22:28, but that was not enough for me to start thinking positive.
Apparently i am a very negative person. that statement has come from a few people in my life. I tried to change my thoughts but it only takes me a minute and i forget and so i end up back to square one…-ve thoughts.
So just a few days ago as i searched for uplifting music on YouTube, i came across James fortune’s new album called identity. For me, that was the turn-around.
The Album blessed me in so many ways and i felt like shouting to the whole world to listen to it. If i could that is. I sent a few recommendations to a few people here and there hoping they would get blessed as i had been, but i guess people get ministered to in different ways.
From that album i learnt that As much as i go through pain and disappointment, i have to know that it could be worse. I should praise now because i am still standing. I learnt to trust God rather than question Him, because truth be told, i did alot of that over the past few months. It got to a point where i felt there was no point in praying because He wasn’t listening. (By the way if your reading this and thinking the same thing, let me tell you right now, that is a bad mentality and regardless of what happens, just know that God hasn’t given up on you.)
Nowadays i have decided to ask God to change my identity and to make me a new person who believes that everything that happens in my life worketh for my good. I have decided to trust God and to think positive…Well, i am working on that. 🙂
So this morning i want to bless you guys with this beautiful song and hope it will change your mentality and your life. Don’t be so caught up overlooking your mistakes. God cares about you. Just trust Him and believe that He will change you if you are willing. Do not be negative, no matter what the devil throws at you, God can still turn things around and give you the breakthrough you want. Do not be weary.
As i write this blog, i am actually ministering to myself aswell. I know it is easier said than done, but all you need is a little faith in the most High and all will be well.
I highly recommend a purchase of the album.
God bless you for reading.